It seems that lately I have been in a slump with writing. Last night, I finally just sat down and started writing. I was not even sure if what I was saying made any sense at all but I was determined to move forward. After writing for almost three hours, I finally closed the computer and headed to bed. This morning I was pleasantly surprised that what I had written managed to fit into the next chapter to book 2. It took some tweaking to make it sound just right, but it seems I am moving forward!
I was raised in a time where children are seen and not heard. Silence for children was a must. Good, well-behaved children were evaluated by how quiet and obedient they were. The problem with silence is the outward appearance can always speak louder than what happens behind closed doors. If children are quiet, they are seen as obedient. The parents are doing a great job with raising obedient children. They must be amazing parents. In return, these parents become respected, looked up to, and even revered at times.
At the same time, the children are taught they don’t have a voice. These children must endure whatever is dished at them because they cannot speak up without making things worse at home. Appearances mean so much. A loud child, or a child who speaks out of turn, is disobedient and defiant.
Breaking the silence is the only way to change the cycle. Children should be heard. We should listen to them. Validate their concerns, feelings, and thoughts. Break the cycle. Silence is not always golden.
I also believe in research, but that is a topic for later…
And just like that book 2 is in the works. So many ideas running around in my head as I sit here planning on the direction to take. Where do the girls go in their lives for the next few months? What are they struggling with most? What is their end goal? What do I want them to accomplish in this book? What steps are they taking to heal? The girls try to live as normal as lives as they possibly can. At least that is what they want the outside world to see. But inside themselves they continue to struggle with their demons, memories, triggers, and secrets. Life is complicated when trying to balance two worlds.
Living in two worlds can be challenging. There are challenges and obstacles between two worlds that many will never understand or fully be able to grasp. It is not a fantasy, a fairy tale, or dream land. For these girls, this is their lives. Surviving happens in one world; living happens in another.
I am so excited about how many people are willing to read and review my book! It is inspiring. I am so grateful and nervous.
I have been nervous about writing this book. It is a work of fiction, but so much of it is based on my life personally. I have spend a lot of time trying to write these ‘characters’ with such care and compassion as they are so close to me on a personal level. The mean a lot to me, and I hope they will to the readers as well.
After 40 years in the making, I have finally sat down and pursued my dream of writing a novel. I am very excited to see how this goes and look forward to many more novels which are in me. Come along and enjoy the ride with me 🙂